I haven’t written for a few months and felt like I was missing you this weekend. Daddy, in his usual ways, was playing a new video game (Crimson Desert) over the weekend. At one point I wanted to take a break, get up, and move around a little. Daddy is infinitely skilled at sitting in his gaming station without moving for hours, but Daddy also knows that he needs to move around a little bit. I decided that when I got up I would do some cleaning. I have had a small collection of toys and lots of wooden trains that I had been wanting to give you. They have not sat here for over a year. I have moved them around the house, keeping them close by. This time, though, I ended up finding one of your paintings that you had done of Baby Shark for Daddy the last time I saw you, baby girl. I have moved them many times also, but I took a moment to sit and look at your finger painting. That led me to reminisce and go looking at all of the pictures I have of you around my room. Daddy got pretty sad at that point. I was missing you and really wanted to see what you are doing these days. I can only imagine—you’re getting so big and so smart. It hurts my little heart that I can’t take you to the zoo or teach you how to ride a longboard or snowboard.

I went out to Thunder Bay with Nani & Papa a couple weekends ago. It was really good—Papa got out on skis for the first time in nearly 10 years!! Daddy and Papa had lots of fun together on the big ski hill in Thunder Bay. We went to Mount Baldy for the first time, as Loch Lomond had some maintenance issues and had one of their chairlifts down. We spent most of our time together just going up and down, having a great time. It broke my little heart and almost made me cry to see all the little girls your age out there. I wanted to teach you to snowboard so badly. Longboarding and snowboarding would have been something you could have started by age 3 or 4, and you would have been such a skilled boarder by the time you get a little older. I hope you still get to learn to snowboard at some point. Your Mommy and I never did make it out to Asessippi—that was something that we thought we had the rest of our lives to do, but sadly that won’t happen now. Maybe one day I can take you, and I can still show you how to ride a snowboard. Daddy is certainly not the most in-shape guy on the planet, but the one athletic thing that I can do is ride a board. Daddy just wants to share that with you, Zay Zay. I hope one day you and I get to fly down the slopes together.

I really love you Azaylia,

Oneday soon Daddy will be back in your life